well I haven't had a reality friend in about 8 years, and even then I would have to argue the definition of friend.

you know who you are. I am sorry.

As far as my last "almost friend", I didn't mess it up so much as she went to another school. but since it had been the longest "almost friendship" I have had I based some of my actions on that.

something I have learned to day.

not all girls like being called pretty, and they do not find it funny when you joke around about liking them. I did not know this since: the "almost friend" didn't mind this, in fact she would ask me O_O

It seems with every failed friendship I learn something that will one day mean I can have an actual friend (I should have a friend by: 2040).

however loosing this one was particularly bad. she reminded me of

Both of them had a way of encouraging me to be me.

for anyone that doesn't know: "me" is the guy you all know on deviantart. the not me is a serious guy that has no creativity and seems always angry.

So yes I feel stupid.

After some chatting we decided to pretend this all never happened... but of course uncertainty will always be there.

I do not mention this persons name out of respect not spite.

I won't be discussing this with her again, but I may ask her on the last day of class as to where it all went wrong, was I building to a disaster and this was mearly the breaking point, or was I alright all along and this was an iceberg?